It’s 5/15/16 ~Unbelievably half way through May. It’s my stepdaughter’s birthday. She’s 35 and a Special Education Teacher. Her name is Missy, but Jessica and the rest of the family affectionately call her “Sissy”. She’s Jessica’s Big Sis and Jess worships the ground that Sissy walks on!!!
I’m sitting here in awe at the beauty of this particular Sunday morning Sunrise you’d just have to see in person. A country Sunday at our seasonal campground in the beautiful hills of Litchfield, Ct thinking of my litter dreamer, jessica???. she has big dreams of being an actor, and WHY NOT??? Jess has every rite just like everyone else in this world to dream of a future full of wonder, joy and excitement. All doors are open to her, special needs or not!!!
She reads, loves music, watches videos, just like any other “typical” teenager?. She feels love, compassion, excitement; however, last week while we were waiting for her bus on our front porch, I said “you finish your Sophmore year in High School in less than a month
and that means next year in your Junior year you can go to the Junior Prom”?. (Oh did I forget to mention that she’s addicted to her IPhone, Pandora and DANCING?)
Sadly she turned to me and said no mommy, I won’t be asked to the prom. I said why not. She came right back at me and said, because of my face. Well, my heart just broke for her. She now knows all about having Down Syndrome and that she’s different. She hasnt’ quite grasped the fact yet that she’s just a little different BUT A LOT alike her peers!
What do you say to your beautiful child who has a vision of her future which she feel she feels is less than her peers just because of her looks which she is very aware of these days? I tried to reassure her that she was just as beautiful on the outside and she is on the inside, but you could see the doubt in her especially bright and beautiful blue eyes. Heartbroken, I could feel her pain! I rememberd in High School there were “classes” of people and depending on which “class or click” you belonged to meant EVERYTHING for those 4 long years.
When she comes home from school each day she says she sits alone in the cafeteria eating her lunch every day. Nobody asks to sit with her or asks her to sit with them.
WHAT’S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD, when a child as kind and compassionate and friendly as Jessica has to eat alone at the lunch table??? A sixteen yr. old who just wants to be “typical” and fit in. She’s started dressing as a “stylin” teen as we jokingly laugh and call it. LOL She watches the other girlls ever so carefully and takes it all in, hoping to desperately fit in. So I reasure her constantly each day as I accept the hundreds of hugs she so freely and lovingly wants to give me, and I hope and pray with my strongest faith that our “Awesome Blessing from God” will see that she is beautiful on the outside, and JustJessica is a only little different but a lot alike. I pray every day and night that God will watch over her and make sure hear dreams are heard and answered??
Happy Sunday to all and I wish for each and everyone of you a week full of “wishes in your dreams”??